Editor’s Note: Jae believed that he would find happiness by pursuing a homosexual lifestyle, but it ultimately led to depression, suicidal thoughts and being in a mental institute. As Jae can testify, he found his true identity in Jesus.
I have to testify! God is so good can’t nobody in the world tell me he can’t do the impossible. The picture to the left is the past me.
The picture to the left was a young man who was drowning in sin. If I may, I’d attach this quote to that picture because I wasn’t happy at all. “It’s like I’m in the middle of the street suffocating and no one can see me dying.”
The picture to the right is the new and improved me. It’s on the right for a very clear reason! Its the right look and the right me! Who I was meant to be. “Learning by experience often is painful and the more it hurts, the more you learn. ”
I was living a lifestyle of homosexuality. Attracted to men and dating men. The enemy had a hold of my mind. As I look back over my life I went through different levels with my past lifestyle. The stage where I denied being gay, the stage where I wanted everyone to know I was gay, to the last and final stage. The stage where this isn’t working for me so let’s just live life and accept I’ll never change. Guess what? None of those stages worked! I was another lost soul on my way to hell, but God saw fit and gave me a chance to clean my life up. See what half of you guys see is the positive statuses I post, the pictures where I’m smiling and being so uplifting. I bet half of you didn’t know I’ve contemplated suicide, been in a mental institute, suffered from depression. The Dr’s pronounced me as being bipolar. I been on all kind of depression medications and on top of that had to struggle with not knowing my identity.
NOT NO MORE! I met a man on ☆9-18-11☆ who changed my life forever. The same man I was introduced to at a early age. The bible says, “Train a child up in the way he should go and when he gets older he will not depart from it.” The name of the man I met on that very special day is Jesus! I invited him to come live inside of me in Donaldsonville, GA in front of several people. He came in and cleaned me up from the inside out. I had taken all I could take from my past lifestyle! I was tired of getting my heart broken, getting my feelings toyed with. That very day in September, I gave my heart to a man named Jesus and ever since he’s not yet broken my heart (and by the way will never). He taught me to love myself no matter what. I had to transition into the man I am today! I stand before you now to let you know if you honestly want change God cares and he can bring you out of whatever sins you’re in. He delivered me from all the mind battles, a homosexual lifestyle, depression, freed me from bipolar disorder, Newport, Drugs, etc. If he did it for me, I know he can do it for anybody else. I’m not ashamed of my past life because I’m not defined by the past me. What counts is that I’m no longer that person and I’ve made major changes in my life with Jesus at the head of it. And for the record I wouldn’t change nothing about my past, because all of that has made me stronger and wiser. #ExHomosexual #RebornAgain